Yes? That's me.

Goodbye too long..

2011-01-23T22:05:00.000+08:00

Last post Sept 12 2010.. Now it's 23 Jan 2011..

TOO MANY!

2010-09-12T19:08:00.002+08:00

I have been kinda too busy to update any of my letter challenge, if I had done it diligently, I would have been close to done now.. So I shall continue!

The 30 Day Letter Challenge-Day 12

2010-09-12T19:04:00.002+08:00

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Dear You,

Actually I dont have anyone who was like that.. I dont hate anyone but there have been such situations.. So.. Whatever you did, cant be undone.. No matter how much apologizes are given and forgiven, the wounds will remain.. Whoever you are, I hope you aint that way no more..

♥ Saran

Thrown with the posts.

2010-08-29T22:57:00.003+08:00

Everyone seems to be doing the Letter Challenge.. And I find it so cool! Seeing all those letter that strangers would read.. And not worry about anything...

This Is Me

2010-08-29T22:12:00.002+08:00

Things are gone.. Things have been found.. I am getting confused.. But I am gonna push it all away.. Having 5 people come on to me back to back aint easy..

tata..

The 30 Day Letter Challenge-Day 11

2010-08-29T21:58:00.003+08:00

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Dear Dada,

I wish I had the chance to get to know you.. I wished I could have heard all those funny stories from you.. Hear about your life.. Hear about your children's life.. You would be able to have seen my throphies and certificates, see me grow up like how Dadi, Nana and Nani are doing.. And maybe if you were around, we wold be a big family meeting up every weekend and stuff.. But I know you are up there looking over us and seeing it all too.. Everything has happened for a reason and happens for a reason..

♥ Saran

The 30 Day Letter Challenge-Day 10

2010-08-29T21:45:00.002+08:00

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Dear Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to,

I wish we could talk more.. I really want things to be normal between us.. I dont mind being friends with you.. But I have noting to start a convo with.. Hope you get me..

♥ Saran

The 30 Day Letter Challenge-Day 9

2010-08-29T21:34:00.002+08:00

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Dear Someone you wish you could meet,

This would come down to either Cristiano Ronaldo or Gerrard Butler.. I JUST WANNA SAY I LOVE YOU!

♥ Saran

The 30 Day Letter Challenge-Day 8

2010-08-28T09:26:00.002+08:00

Day 8 — Your favourite internet friend

Dear
favourite internet friend,

I so know who this is.. HEY!!!! Finally a guy online who speaks good English.. And a plus point- you are in the army.. How cool is that.. Talking to you makes me so away from everything else.. Hope one day we can meet =D

♥ Saran

The 30 Day Letter Challenge-Day 7

2010-08-25T20:48:00.002+08:00

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Dear Ex-crush,

Thanks for unknowingly making me feel special for sometime.. Thanks for all the hugs.. Thanks ah..

"Your only gonna break break ya break break ya heart.."

Aint that always the case for us all..

♥ Saran

The 30 Day Letter Challenge-Day 6

2010-08-24T21:08:00.002+08:00

Day 6 — A stranger

Dear Stranger,

I see you everyday and everywhere.. I always wonder how you are doing..

♥ Saran

The 30 Day Letter Challenge-Day 5

2010-08-23T21:39:00.001+08:00

Day 5 — Your dreams

Dear Dreams,

I will make sure you all come true..

♥ Saran

The 30 Day Letter Challenge-Day 4

2010-08-22T16:58:00.002+08:00

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Dear Siblings,

To the Brother of mine.. Stop being an Arse.. I mean seriously.. Stop being selfish.. And please start studying ah.. Stop just seeing whatever you.. You got parents who love you and you are treating them like shit.. So suck and behave.. You are only frigging 16..

To my darling baby.. You are the Princess of the house.. There is still a long way to go for you.. SO stay happy.. Stay as free and as happy go lucky as you are.. The way you are will help you in life.. LOVE YOU BABY!

♥ Saran

The 30 Day Letter Challenge-Day 3

2010-08-21T23:21:00.002+08:00

Day 3- Your Parents

Dear Parents,

Thank you for everything given to me.. Thank you for the love.. Thank you for all the scolding.. Thank you for all the teachings.. If I carry on saying thank you for everything, it will never end.. So you get what I mean thank you for everything

I am sorry for all the things wrong that inject done.. Like what you guys say.. Noone is perfect.. I am trying my best to keep to your rules.. Eventhough alot of them are ancient.. But still I have been following them.. Please cut me some slack once in a while.. I ain't superwoman to be perfect and on the ball all the time.. I am 18 already.. Things are changing but I know right from wrong.. I hope you both can have that much of faith and trust in me..

Love you Mummy and Daddy!

♥ Saran

The 30 Day Letter Challenge-Day 2

2010-08-20T22:40:00.002+08:00

Day 2 — Your Crush

Dear Crush,

First thing when I see you, my heart stops for a moment.. And then that smile of yours appears.. I could just die! It looks damn nice!I can go nuts with just the smile..

Dont get me started on your arms.. I feel like just running up to you and hugging you.. I love your arms and smile.. Thanks for unknowingly putting a smile on my face each time I see you..

♥ Saran

The 30 Day Letter Challenge-Day 1

2010-08-19T21:44:00.005+08:00

Here we go..

Day 1 - Your Best Friend

Dear Besties (Applies to Either one of you),

HELLO! It has been sometime since we sat and chatted.. I wouldn't mind writing letters to you everyday.. At least then, we wont need to be wondering what is going on in the other's life.. At least that is how I feel.. To me.. I sometimes worry about what is going on there.. Whether are you alright.. Taking care of your self while pushing your limits..

I got this to tell you... I have learnt how to ignore.. I mean like finally learnt it.. I wondered why did I get so affected and bothered about it so much.. To the extend that it is a part of me.. Taking all that, I managed to channel it to better things.. You should see the way I handle it now.. You would be surprised.. I sure am.. I actually forgot about it!

If I carry on, I will never end.. I still have alot to say to you.. However there is something I have never said.. I realised that I have never been able to sit myself down and write a letter or card to you.. I cant remember the last time I did..

I am really blessed to have you as my friend.. Through everything.. All the laughter, scoldings, happiness, tears, bruises and what not.. Thank you for all those wonderful times.. We cant get them back now but we can always look back at them and smile and laugh about it.. Thank you for all the help you have given me.. Thank you for the advices.. Thank you for the jokes.. Thank you especially for being able putting up with me and my nonsense! THANK YOU FOR BEING MY BESTIE ALL THIS YEARS! I really appreciate everything you have done for me.. I really appreciate you.. The phrase "Best friends are siblings god forgot to give us" come in play.. LOVE YOU!

♥ Saran

The 30 Day Letter Challenge

2010-08-19T21:43:00.002+08:00

So this was what I was refering to.. I am gonna do it here and Tumblr.. Here cause this area is dead and noone reads it and in Tumbr cause everyone can see it and it can be lost in the depths of the web..

WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE :

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Hey Ho Whatcha Know

2010-08-19T07:52:00.002+08:00

Heyyyyyyyy

It been close to a month since I blogged.. Well I can safely say that during this month, I have finally learnt to ignore and not be overly bothered with anything..

Nothing done would have an affect on me.. To me it would be just another crazy nonsense of theirs..

Well I got this friend.. I have been the one starting the conversations.. Asking about them.. How's things and all.. But then I thought.. Why do I feel like it is just a o e side thing.. Like I am trying to keep the friendship alive.. Can you call it a friendship in the first place? where only one person shares? Anyways like I was saying.. So I kinda thought why am I trying when I am just another person to them.. So I stopped.. And has there been any conversation since.. Nope.. You may think what a sucker am I trying to keep something that's dying foam dying.. What to do, I am sentimental and worry about the smaller things in life..

Next topic! I haven't visited my tumblr in some time.. So I decided to.. Simply just love Tumblr.. Okay okay.. The thing is.. I saw alot of people I an following doing this 30 day letter challenge.. But it's on Tumblr.. However, I decided to bring it ere and do it.. Starting later today I shall start Day 1.. Atleast this would let me visit my blogger more often..

Wokay! Toodles for now! :)

Died Revive..

2010-07-22T09:17:00.003+08:00

I got this fear whenever I leave for school in rain.. That it will flood and I would get stuck in the flood while on the busl.. Bus not being able to go anywhere.. Being left stranded with water all around.. Feeling super cold.. I dont wanna die from drowning.. Hell No!

Anyways.. Life has been like the weather.. There have been days that I have ben super chirpy and happy.. While others, feeling down and crappy.. Monday, I just felt like being a bitch to everyone.. So Sorry guys, you were the firsts ones to get it..

I was telling them, how I wished I had the power to kill someone BUT they coming back to life.. Cause I dont want the person to really be dead but I want to kill them at some point.. SO kill but they still live without any harm done.. Or maybe have killer stares, with the same theory.. Saran Saran Saran.. You and you wild imagination..

Oh well.. GO GO POWER RANGERS!

Dead Living...

2010-07-22T09:11:00.003+08:00

Hello There..

Some Women asked me to update this dead blog..

Problem is, I dunno what to update..

Eh, this actually turned out into a post..

Okay bye!

Be a bitch

2010-06-25T16:50:00.004+08:00

Things have not been the same.. It will never will be.. What more can I say when there is nothing to say..

I can consider myself as a loner.. I dont have that many friends outside.. Out of those few, they all are too busy and bla bla..

I have started talking out loud to myself.. And sometimes, that makes much more sense..

WELLS, I can see who flies away now..

In the end, we will just turn out to be someone's bitch."

Blown away..

2010-05-31T22:53:00.004+08:00

Seeing you guys happy, makes me stop and retract whatever I wanted to let go.. Why should I dampen your moods.. No point dragging others in.. I will get my release one day..

I was thinking.. The first time it happens and it turns out like this.. Why do the wierd things and people come towards me.. Maybe cause I myself am wierd or have been walking with a sign invisible to me..

Something is seriously wrong with me.. Internally and externally..

Sexy Boy

2010-05-29T21:11:00.008+08:00

Recently, I have noticed dimpled smiles.. AND THEY ARE HOT! Some guys, just by smiling, they get you smiling.. That is just AWESOME! BUT! When there are dimples involved, OMG, melts even more.. Imagine melted butter melting.. I dont know what you get..

How can you not resist such guys..

JUST LOOK AT THE SMILE! UP AND DOWN!

This guy,I cant hate him.. He is an awesome player nonetheless..

I want a wrist tattoo, on my left wrist.. Just words.. If not, ankle tattoo.. Plus my s&7 tat.. Damn.. I think I am gonna save up for one for my next brithday..

Finally found this picture.. I simply love my shades, even if they look big, IT LOOKS NICE! "Real ah?"

"Yeap real.."

Heh heh heh...

Anyways.. I came to this conclusion I have this list of things I want to do.. But I wont get to do majority of them as long as I am under this roof.. So I shall wait.. 21 or out.. Whichever comes first..

I felt like closing or privatising this blog.. Since noone reads.. But I use this as a place of release.. How can I close it..

And that guy is getting on my nerves..

2010-05-22T08:36:00.002+08:00

PacMan 300 Anniversary.. Okay Random fact.. But first thing i saw when I opened google was Pacman.. Then I click and WOW! PLAY TIME! Hahah! Okay.. Im easily amused sometimes..

Anyways.. Woke up at 5.30 today.. Sent the rest of the family off.. Im left alone in Singapore.. Wait, not alone cause I wont be able to get to use the empty house.. Oh well.. Gotta sacrifice sometimes..

I see my event coming out.. I dont know about the rest.. I am just hoping that all 9 can put thier heart into it.. A little faith goes a long way people! 1 more month to go!

On top of that, I have my driving.. Booked my TP Pract test for July.. I WILL PASS ON MY FIRST TRY! Im gonna prove everyone wrong! MUAHAH!!

Okay.. Off I go.. Gotta do more reckying.. TOODLES!

Life Fucks You Too..

2010-05-15T16:45:00.007+08:00

Cool picture right.. Can you see what it actually says..

I should seriously take the advice of my girls.. I mean I dont know why I just let it slide and go on each time.. Eventhough I feel like crap inside yet I let it go.. Each one of them have been saying the same thing.. Let it out.. Throw him aside.. I mean I have tried and tried, but keep being the spare.. The one on the receiving end.. So receive, but cant give.. Not in a good way.. It sucks..

Now just you try.. I will make sure you appreciate what once was.. I will seriously fuck you upside down.. Dont think I cant be evil..

Funny thing is that such an insignificant thing made me smile like nobody's business.. No relation whatsoever and yet when I saw him performing, =D..

I care you too much thats why I bothered to put up with your crap..

Just a Spare

2010-05-14T12:06:00.001+08:00

Taken as a replacement.. That has always been the case.. Yet I still push on hoping for reciprocation..

I simply expect too much.. Alot has been proven.. I shall stick to myself..

Red Ranger!

2010-05-13T22:10:00.004+08:00

I have no idea why I love this picture so much.. So anyways.. I hope there is no problem with my ear.. Pray that the doctor give a clear health tomorrow.. Also, I have passed my FTT! Next step TP prac!

I can never complete a conversation with you anymore.. It always is left hanging.. I dont mind.. But atleast care abit? Nahhh... I am asking for too much.. You aint like that.. You are just finding people to surround you.. I was hoping to get an answer that would have proved everyone wrong.. But you made them all happy by doing exactly what they expected...

So lets get fucked up and die!

:)

2010-05-11T10:34:00.004+08:00

Wokay!

I am going for the OIP.. 5 weeks away..

Mummy said something to me, that made me surprised and made me laugh internally..

Oh well..

Life is good with a couple of hurdles, may them be mountains or molehills, life is still good..

Surprised

2010-05-07T23:14:00.001+08:00

I'm surprised and touched at how some guys are.. They bother to ask whether are you feeling better today or get well quick.. Eventhough I know them for jus 3 weeks..

Iris, I have not eaten any throat affecting food under you watch.. Haha.. Hope by monday my voice will be back.. Ear would be a okay..

I'm just touched by these simple things..

So China.. I want to go.. But I know if I do, I would be making new friends instead of old ones.. 2 grps, pushed out by both.. Oh well.. Suck it up and gain experience and independance or jus be alone here with my bed..

2010-05-07T22:22:00.001+08:00

No no no.. You don't come and tell me such a thing.. And on top of that indirectly..

I didn't do anything wong..

Dont Make Me Regret

2010-05-06T20:49:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I seriously wanna screw people up.. Especially the ones who are screwing me.. Take a stick and shove up their ass.. Letting them feel the pain..

So anyways let me summarise the week.. Monday, couldnt take it in class.. Wanted to just sleep.. Throat was aching and all.. Tuesday it got better.. Wednesday, voice changed.. Wednesday evening, shrap pain to ear.. Thursday morn, skip class go Doc.. Say infection.. Put medicine.. Bleed whole day.. Voice gotten sexy.. So yeap.. Practically what happened the whole week.. Couldnt get much work done..

Yeap.. Today in MPI, some stupid shit happened.. I really wanted to whack the guy.. Think what.. you can stop us from going into the class like that.. Who asked you to sit there in the first place!

ARGH MAKE ME SO BOILED!!!

2010-04-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

Coach.. You will seriously be missed!

Like Seriously..

2010-04-25T01:08:00.001+08:00

When I say it.. You ppl just ignore.. When someone else says it.. You all go running.. Well done..

Keeping My Head On..

2010-04-24T22:28:00.001+08:00

What Someone told me made me think.. I bother and care about people around me too much.. I know much about my friends but do they know me? Haha! What a question.. Whoever reading, no offence.. I'm just speaking my mind.. I have helped people find themselves.. But funny thing is I haven't found myself yet..

You can have a thousand of friends online but how many will be there for you.. I can easily count mine on one hand.. That's about it.. And I'm alright with it.. Atleast i have someone.. That's why I love these people alot!

Now onto guys.. No matter the relation to you, if they got a reason to be happy then they will be all nice to you.. If not, good luck takingthe crap.. This may not be every guy but many of them have this fault.. Yea I know we girls have our flaws.. But what you expect when we give our best and just get an okay.. There is always an ulterior motive to be nice.. They can't be nice and happy for you..

This is just a few of the many things on my mind.. I have realised I shouldn't keep quiet.. If i find it stupid I should jus say.. I may gain haters but what for hide behind.. I will say what's on my mind.. Don't like it, too bad.. You aren't worth my friendship anyways.. I will be frank no matter who you are.. This may sound stupid but oh well.. I have kept quiet in the background for too long..

Jealousy may kill or day..

Toodles for now..

=(

2010-04-23T07:06:00.001+08:00

GOOD MORNING WORLD! I am a confused kid with too much unknown in her head.. I dislike this.. Goodbye..

The Blur Attacks!

2010-04-22T04:45:00.001+08:00

It's 4.30 in the morning.. I'm lying in bed all cuddled up and feeling crappy again.. Damn.. I tot it was alrite last nite..

Saran, it's a new day.. Something good may happen! Who knows..

Delayed ah on one hand.. On the other I tried but got ignored.. Oh well I tried..

I'm gng back to sleep.. Another 2 hrs to wake up.. Toodles!

It's all over

2010-04-21T07:56:00.001+08:00

Everyone wants that one person who knows when something is wrong.. Knows what we want.. Even by not saying or doing anything.. Even just a random message or something can cheer you up.. Nothing.. I got no idea why do I try to keep connected when I got nothing to be connected to..

It feels damn irritating to not know how you are feeling.. It sucks to be me right now.. Haha!! That's an understatement.. I want someone to just hug me and say everything will turn out good.. And actually know what they are saying..

Chilli doesn't make you cry as bad as having no one being there..

Goodbye..

Fire Raging In The Skies

2010-04-20T18:57:00.005+08:00

Was in Human Factors class when I realised that.. The teacher showed us a video from Top Gun plus the song.. And it got me thinking..

Everytime I see planes, helicopters, fighter jets or anything related, I get goosebumps... I simply love it.. I really want to get a job relate to it.. Especially if its military based.. Their planes are the best.. It is hard work.. I know I can do it.. I pray that I can do it.. Cause I WANT IT BAD!

Human factors will be the module that I am 'on my own'.. Syihab also there ah.. So yea.. It will be one place I would be able to think straight.. Iris I still dont mind joining your class! HAHAH!!

On the other hand.. I have been thinking alot about this thing.. Whether do I really like him? I care alot about him.. I will do nearly anything for him.. I cant bear to ignore him.. I think about him alot too.. And much more.. Nahhh its just over thinking.. I see him as a friend.. No more.. Right?

Damn I am so conflicted!

H.E.L.P

First Day Awake

2010-04-20T07:40:00.002+08:00

Well well well..

First day back to school.. Feels good.. It should get better I think!

Back to Madness

2010-04-16T16:54:00.004+08:00

Madness is what I call it.. Cause there will be a lot of things happening and thus making everyone crazy.. School is starting on Monday! =D

So I had said I wanted to accomplish all this before holidays ended.. I managed to do only 4 out of 7 stuff.. Movie Marathon, Bowling, Getting my Chilli Peppers and Just Chilling..

No worries.. BECAUSE I ENJOYED MYSELF! A holiday that finally was a holiday.. I wwent out.. Met up with whoever.. Until Wednesday, I did not buy anything other than my shoes.. I went Bugis with Mummy then.. Had fun.. Got 3 new tops and jeggings!.. Different from what I normally would get.. I was so open that I said this to my Mum...

S: Hot guy!

M: Huh? WHAT!?!

S: *Laughs* Good looking guy.. Ang Moh..

5 mins later..

S: *hits on mummy's arm* EVEN HOTTER GUY!

M: Where? Oh.. Chey.. Not my type!

S: For me ah.. Not you!

M: *stares at me going lalala*

Funny sia.. We were laughing and all.. Oh well.. Things at home are good.. Things with my darling friends good.. Life is good!

Sidetrack- BTT done! FTT in July.. Practical Test should be after that.. I AM COMING!! WOO!! Tmr will be the first time 'officially' in the driver's seat.. Excited!

Ending off with me saying- I feel different nowadays.. Seriously different.. Anyone knows why? =)

CIAO PEOPLE! Keep on Smiling! =DD

I miss you..

2010-04-13T20:38:00.002+08:00

"Hey You..

Yes You.. I miss the special jokes and conversations we used to have.. I miss all the teasing we used to do.. God, where did You go? None of this is the same now.. It's simple one sided.. I miss You.. Hope You are doing well.. I am always here..

From Me"

Don't we always feel this way once
Or twice in our life.. Always missing the good times.. Well let me tell you.. It comes and goes.. It never stays forever.. If you try and force it, further it goes..

So what do you do? Just sit back and chill.. If they are the ones who leave, they will come back if you mean something to them.. No point forcing anything.. You only end up screwing yourself more.. Life is too short to wait..

I am not saying that waiting is not good.. Why not enjoy the wait.. Same goes with everything in life.. The more you force things to go your way, the more it turns the other direction..

Do your best.. You will never regret your best.. Accept it positively and only positive will come because things happen for a reason..

I believe..

2010-04-03T21:58:00.001+08:00

Moment I have enough cash I am moving out.. Period!

Hey You!

2010-03-30T11:12:00.001+08:00

SMILE LIKE YOU MEAN IT! =D

Enter the future!

2010-03-23T18:24:00.001+08:00

Hell yeah! I am gonna love watchig movies at home! LED TV! Awesome! LOVING IT! =D

Anyways MSN is screwed today. After lunch I saw 4 or 5 people online.. Then it became 0 at 3 plus.. And until now still ZERO!!! Wth! People can see me online but I can only see those on ebuddy.. Alamak.. Te internet is really trully screwed..

Okay.. I will add him later..

AND I got something to rant abt!!! It's not fair to compare me to him!!! I am no where near who he is! Done!

Bye! =D

CHILLI PEPPERS!!!

2010-03-20T14:26:00.009+08:00

HEADLINE NEWS!!!

So I have been hunting for red shoes all over.. Found this converse pair of shoes looking nice.. Sad to say found out that the model I wanted were from 2 seasons ago and limited to then only.. So meaning GONE! Then, my dear Pamela found it online.. Messaged, met the guy, who was nice too AND TADA! I GOT MY CHILLI PEPPERS!!!!

The red colour is whoooo!!!

Anyways to other local news..

I am not going to care.. I am not going to care.. I am not going to care.. Yes Final.. Should Learn from Cindy The Art of Ignoring .. Need to learn it..

"Yea la yea la.. Just leave me hanging here okay.. I will still be hanging here when you get back from wherever.. And still be hanging when you leave for whatever.. Just keep hanging.."

I cant load the videos at all.. Taking too damn long.. Okay.. I think I really have got a huge crush on this guy no since that day.. I cant seem to get his smile out of my head.. I keep listening to those few songs.. On top of that I cant stop watching the videos.. I keep smiling like an idiot when I see it.. It's not like anything is gonna happen or what.. Oh God and you know, his smile is damn nice.. Its the best smile I have seen in a long while.. HAHAH! It just makes you wanna smile too!

=DDD

2010-03-19T13:44:00.001+08:00

Videos taking too long to load.. Tomorrow morning..

2010-03-18T19:33:00.007+08:00

Monday.. Went for Gurmail's Wedding reception.. And I enjoyed! I have not seen bhangra in ages.. And got a chance to see it then.. Enthu man! Ate good food.. Had great entertainment and company.. Not forgeting dancing..

Oh yea.. I saw a hot guy there.. Found his FB.. Oh my, the wonders of Facebook! Wooo!!!

Here are some pics.. Videos later..

Baby and Me..

MY FIRST RED SUIT!! ♥

My Darlings..

Doorgift.. A notepad.. I took the Groom.. CAUSE I NEED A GROOM, not a bride! =D

He says he sees my sister and think its me cause that's how he remembers me as.. Haha! Its been that long since we met..

The Bride and Groom with my family..

2010-03-15T10:20:00.003+08:00

Before the holiday ends I want to :-

1) Go bowling

2) Go cycling

3) Go blading

4) Movie marathon

5) Sentosa

6) Get my chilli pepper shoes

7) Just find someone to sit and chill with

Yeap.. I want to do this stuff during the holidays.. Anyone?

Just me..

2010-03-15T09:19:00.003+08:00

Someone once told me..

ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS S.M.I.L.E! And your problems will seem a distant away..

Nothing you do can change the world.. But you can do something to change someone's life.. It is good enough..

Just help everyone and expect nothing in return.. It's the joy and achievement they get that makes you feel good.. Good things always come around.. Karma..

If your angry, just scream out, even its for a minute.. Next thing you know, you are feeling alright.. Thinking abotu it gets you nowhere.. Just take the next step forward..

No one is perfect.. So don't expect me to change much for you.. I am who I am.. Live with it.. No point living behind a mask made by someone.. Be yourself..

Jealousy only makes people hate you more.. So make things work for yourself..

Don't think you can live life on your own.. You will still need your family and friends some day.. No matter what, your family and only your true friends will stick by you all the way..

You need them to push and pull you to the right directions.. That's why they were sent to you..

There is always a reason behind everything that happens.. And things always happens for a reason.. This is something I am damn sure of..

You never know what is going to happen tomorrow.. So when you get the chance, appreciate what you have.. Don't regret all the things you have not done.. DO IT NOW!

So just live your life.. Enjoy everyday.. Stop hiding in your hole.. Come out of it.. Smell the fresh air!

Trust me.. Everything around you is beautiful.. You just need to open your eyes to see it..

You may be living life according to the 'rules' of everyone.. But nope.. That is not life.. You can be it up yet not feel at ease, like something is missing.. It is the happiness and peace that bring people to feel so comfortable with what they have..

Thinking about stuff may lead you places.. And places shall I go.. I really want to throw my past away.. All the misdeeds and start anew.. Atleast I am starting.. So if I have done any wrong to me, please let me know.. I want to undo it..

2010-03-14T15:04:00.002+08:00

I have hit rock bottom with this..

Warning

2010-03-13T21:49:00.003+08:00

Hyper on High last night died when I woke up this morning.. I ain't feeling so good now.. Not feeling happy.. Feel sadistic.. But why.. Allow me to vent in peace..

Every girl will dream of this.. To be loved.. To be cared for.. I still imagine He will come riding on a white horse and would sweep me off my feet bringing me to his far away castle..

Anyways.. I seriously feel like throwing stones at someone.. Really.. I always wonder why I bothered.. Why I still care.. It rarely gets reciprocated.. Screw you for screwing me like this. SCREW SCREW SCREW!!!

Please dont ask me are you okay.. Or what happened, unless you trully bother.. It sucks.. I feel like my sec 4 self.. CONFUSED!

Know what.. I am going to take it all and throw it away in the dustbin.. So you can continue ignoring.. Not bothering.. Its the same story once again..

Lambert is the SEX!

2010-03-12T21:11:00.003+08:00

Hey hey!

(edited)

So update from touch.. Ain't got the time to go on my lappy.. Anyways I'll add a pic tomorrow or something..

Oh the SMILE! MELT!

Today is Adam Lambert's first ever concert in Singapore.. And I didn't get tickets for it.. So it's the third concert I missed this year and it's only been 3 months into the year.. Anyways AL is probably the first AI that I liked.. Shouldn't talk about him .. Sad too much =(

Went Orchard today.. And guess what! Him+ my fav shirt!!!!! Talked with him.. Melt.. I got this thing for that type of voice.. I was practically melting today.. At mac, while eating ice cream I saw his hot Eurasian guy.. We left at the same time.. And you know what, we ended up walking right into each other when exiting.. Melts.. He was pratically walking beside me.. Si Hui then said 'Saran you and him got the feel.. He is so your type.. I couldn't see XXXXX and you holding hands but this guy, I can see..' haha! I wish ah Si Hui..

After that I couldn't concentrate at the ATM for some time.. Haha!! Okay alot of melting today.. Just nice amount.. I don't mind close accounters again.. Hahah!!

I am a happy Saran todayyyyyyy!!!!

Weeeeeeee...

2010-03-09T22:38:00.003+08:00

I have heard this 2 words alot.. And helped..

When can I say it and get help?

All I am saying is when is my turn? I want to be able to live life for what it is.. Not what is written in ink.. Not the rules in this house..

As I am typing this, someone asked for help.. See what I mean.. Hmm.. Actually.. Noone really do get me..

Your Lost..

2010-03-09T21:48:00.005+08:00

I have realised that I cant get proper advice from anyone lately.. All I get are total off reponse.. Responses that somehow I knew I would get..

Sometimes I wonder why I try to carrying on the conversation, when it so clearly shows that you dont bother.. Maybe just maybe I should start taking the advice I give..

If not I will be left in one corner to sulk.. I aint a small kid, my darling.. I am who I am.. Cant handle it, Your lost aint it..

Not mine..

As the sound comes in..

The beat stops..

She looks up..

Smiles..

Fluidly she speaks..

Nothing..

She tries again..

Nothing..

But then She wonders

What is she to you..

Just answer her..

What is she to you..

Let me entertain ya ’til you scream

2010-03-09T21:13:00.003+08:00

Adam Lambert may be gay for all I care.. But he is one hell of an artist!

This is so far the best cover of this song I've heard.. Oh and I kinda like his voice.. His other pieces are good too!

I am sure there will be some people saying ewww..

BUT WHO CARES!! I LIKE IT!

It's gonna get rough..

2010-02-22T20:24:00.003+08:00

Yesterday she went on the bus, plugged in she was moving to the music unknowlingly.. Stealing glances at the cutie nearby..

At school once plugged in, she goes off to the familiar place.. Once again moving.. It gives her the feeling to just get up and moving..

Infront of the computer.. Plugged in once again.. Blocked out from everything around her.. She gets moving again..

Hopefully the feeling comes back.. Being able to hit the dance floor with a bang..

Beating Of Your Heart..

2010-02-20T21:29:00.002+08:00

So.. Two papers down.. Hope there will be moderation.. I went in for both the papers confident.. Maths, came out alright.. Ael, can kiss my marks goodbye..Anyways left 1 more paper.. I think it will go alright..

I can't wait to wear my checkered shirt!! Can't wait for Valentine's Day and Percy Jackson's Lightning Thief! Can't wait for cycling! Can't wait for movie marathons! Can't wait for just chilling..

So.. I've been having this feeling to just go to him and tell him how I feel.. But I know it's not suppose to be like that.. Oh well, I can try right? Hoping things go right.. But yet I know how it is will turn out..

Imagine if I really fell for him? Wow.. Imagine if it really happens.. OMG man!

And I've pranked Abi once again! WOO!! =D No hard feelings babe!

And HE IS NOT GAY!

Here I go again

2010-02-18T19:27:00.001+08:00

So tomorrow is the start of exams.. Rush rush..

Maths then Ael.. Back to back..

Lets go!!!

2010-02-13T09:58:00.008+08:00

(CAUTION LONG POST AHEAD!)

Hey Hey..

So, it's nearly a week since my birthday.. And like I said from my previous post, I have been doing something.. I wrote this post before my birthday and finally posted it.. Have not done such a post before, so here goes nothing..

To 1B02- You guys rock okay.. Sometimes, we may not all be together, or agree on the same thigns BUT we do enjoy ourselves when we all are together.. Celebrating birthdays, before school, lunchtime, during breaks.. We still can click through all the jokes and stories we throw around.. Atleast I hope, that some of us can get back into the same class in the next semester.. If all back together, even better.. Anyways, thank you for a great start to poly life..

To Aashmit & Ben- It has been a good semester with you both and Sheryll.. With all the Sheryll jokes,copying etc.. Thanks for all the help in class and Aashmit, ESPECIALLY IN Compro!

To Ken- Dude! At first I thought you were one of those guys tat kept to themselves.. But it turned out different.. You have a very different perspective on things.. And that is a good thing.. Hope you can find you one soon.. Thanks for all the advice in certain stuff!

To Kenneth- Dude! My hot friend huh.. Hope you can get into the course you really like.. And not be stuck.. Anyways, hope you get the girl you want... heh heh heh..

To Sheryll- Touchy touchy.. Haha.. Confirm you feel geli.. I always wonder if we didn't meet you, who would we have to make jokes about.. Anyways babe, thanks for all the advice and encouragement in practically everything we talk about.. And you've gotten dirtier, no doubt about that..

To Lydia- MY HIGH BUDDY!!!! Missing you loads too.. Miss our cam whoring session.. Everytime we meet, sure one session will arise.. Meet up soon and we can talk about a certain someone.. heh heh..

To Tristal & Sing Wei- Hahah.. Met you guys in tuition plus Chitra.. Tuition gang.. Bubble teas, popcorn chicken, waffles, fries.. Plus Teacher Johnny! We gotta go cycling during hols.. Anyways.. This year important year for you both.. So do well and get to where you aiming for! GO GO GO!!!!

To Kiren, Jassi, Navreen & Sharan- MY DARLINGS!!! I miss you girls alot! We really need to meet up soon.. I got alot of munjens stories! =P You girls have been with me through Punjabi school.. Once a week was enough to get ourselvess back to our roots.. Damn I miss you all.. Anyways hpe you guys are still finding your sona munda or found one already.. Whatever it be, thank you for all the memories of Saturdays in school together, just being so comfortable with each other, no problems.. LOVE YOU GIRLS!!!

To Kin ing- WOMEN!! Miss you loads!!! We dont see much of each other eventhough we stay a stone's throw away! I really wanna thank you for just being you babe! For not changing! Thanks for being there! Hope that you can get over all the crap going on and show everyone what you are worth! ROCK ON WOMEN!

To Si Hui- SI HUI!!! No worries abt not having time now.. Once holidays come, we can go whever we want.. Okay?? We can leave Pamela behind also.. HAHA! Anyways, I realy miss you! Miss all the similarities btw us including our hand writing! Hope you don't die of stress anytime soon kays!

To Eileen- EILEEN!!! You damn fun to talk to la.. No joke.. And I am sure that we will still be talking even when you leave.. Can talk anytime of the day.. And best part, literally on anything.. I hope that things go well with you.. Life can only go up now.. Anyways.. Thank you for all the advice you have given me over this short time.. LOVE YA!!!

To Iris- BABE! You should be in china whn I post this.. Hope you having a great time there! 1 year passes only but we seem to have known each other longer.. You just simply know me.. Like the reason for me being so happy or sad.. I know this is just the beginning for something that's gonna last a lifetime.. Thank you for being there for me Babe!!! ROCK ON SEXY!!! LOVE YA!!

To Pamela- PAMELA!!! Aghhhh run!!!! Hahah!! I don't need to say much to you rite? You have the vibes in your head by now.. We have tolerated each other for 2 years in sec skul and we survived.. Than last year through the distance.. I mean 3 years and look at where it has gotten us.. It made us become telepathic.. Thats One scary shit to have with you, you know!!! HAHAHAHA!! You know I LOVE YA!!!

To Faizal- Trust me, you are gonna pass DEL.. Confirm! Haha.. You know what, sometimes I feel like I dont give you enough credit for being an awesome best friend! Keep making everything seem alrite even when nothing seems right.. It gets people like me moving on and not harping in what ifs.. I think I've already told you what I needed to say recently.. So yea.. Thank you for literally being there 24/7.. Not literally 24/7 but you get what I mean! Try not to change so much.. Okay? LOVE YA!!

Lastly Abigail! You know what I wanna say so no point of me repeating rite! Nahhh.. This year marks 13 years.. 13.. Damn long.. I still remember those days where we will be walking back in kindergarden with nazima.. Our mums will be walking behind us.. Then at our usual spot, we would be doing nonsense.. See since last time we got nonsense.. Oh man those memories.. anyways, thank you for being my best friend.. Thank for really being there in person, to share our joys and sorrows together.. Really love you!

THIS IS TO EVERYONE! To all my friends(mention or not mentioned above) who have stuck with me throughout all these while, thank you for helping me with wadever the issue may be, big or small..

I don't know how you people can put up with my nonsense, dirtiness, craziness, randomness, crappiness and simply just me.. It must be hard.. Whatever you are doign, it hasnt killed me yet so carry on.. You know I won't be here without you guys.. I am damn lucky to have friends like u guys..

Love you all! =D

Ice Creams & Ballons!

2010-02-08T16:25:00.004+08:00

7th Feb

I woke up about 7.. When my aunt called me to wish me.. So then I woke up.. Mum chased me to bath.. When I came out.. I saw that my breakfast was already prepared.. 4 slices of french toast, scrambled egs and milo.. So i ate it.. My sis shared it too since she wanted.. Then suddenly they all went suspicious again.. Mum kept blocking my view etc.. Next thing I knew, my bro brought this out..

A piece of bread with nuttella and layered with m&ms.. He actually wanted to make it a few layers.. THANK GOD HE DID NOT! Anyways.. This was my cake.. I told them if they wanted to get present or cake, jus get a Durian and stick a candle in it or durian puffs..

So then we cleaned up.. Aft wiping the table, i noticed thaat the newspaper was still there, since I bath and came out.. So i wanted to check soccer score.. But zhun zhun I opened jus the first page.. And saw a scrap book.. All 4 of them made it.. A page each.. I was so touched by it, that I was crying again.. Pics later..

So I got ready later on went to Plaza Singapura.. Met my aunt, uncle and cousins first.. Moment I came and sat down, they sang me birthday song.. They actually wanted to treat me lunch..

Anyways.. Pamela came.. She couldnt find the balloon in time.. So off to Astons.. Ate lunch there.. Got some calls.. And then off to Bugis.. That's where we found the balloons.. Not that clear here.. But yea..

Off we went to find Abi and Eileen.. Met them and went to Swensons for desert.. Talked.. I did some interogation of Abi and Pamela.. Talked some more.. Took pics.. And then we went outside to the steps.. Here you go..

BALLOONS!!!

PAMELA! =D

EILEEN! =D

ABIGAIL! =D

Thank you for the good time we had!

Went back home, met Tristal before going back.. They actually wanted to surprise me at my doorstep at midnight.. But thank god they didnt.. My parents not really into that kind of stuff.. So the cake that was meant for that, got eaten by tristal.. So nevermind.. She gave me the presnt and said it was from her, Sing Wei and someone else.. First person I thought of was my brother.. Cause since I asked him not to get me anything, he shared..

Went back.. Din bother changing.. Took pictures of all my presents.. Got to finally sit down and gather my thoughts.. In the next post.. Blogger aint being nice enough to let me tyoe everything one shot.. Got kfc for dinner.. Sis wanted pizza so had pizza too.. Anyways.. Stayed up til midnight..

To step into 8th Feb, Officially 18..

MY DAY! =D

2010-02-07T23:48:00.004+08:00

07.02.10

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

=DD

I see my name up high..

2010-02-07T23:01:00.009+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

Wow.. This birthday is one that I will never forget.. Remember it for life.. There were many firsts for me..

1. First topshop present..
2. First birthday surprise ever.. To be explained later
3. First time Faizal wished me on time! Hahah!! And that also right on the dot midnight.. Achievement huh..
4. First time I cried on my birthday not once but twice..
5. First time everyone important to me wished me..
6. First time all my relatives wished me also..
7. First birthday celebrated with friends way more than my own family.. I just had dinner and breakfast with them..

So let’s start..

6th February 2010

Met Iris for lunch at Bugis.. Kenneth joined us half way.. Then went topshop where Iris asked me to choose which shirt I wanted.. And the one that I have always wanted was one of them. So tried on.. Got size bought.. Went to get some snacks and off to Marina Bay.. Over there, we managed to catch the bus that the rest were in.. So off we went to Marina Barrage.. Settled down.. Me and Iris went to change.. Was too hot.. Iris bought a kite.. And dedicated it to me.. Here it is..

Went back up.. Started flying the kite.. I gave the pioneer flight.. It looked so cool to see my name up there.. So anyways.. I noticed that Iris was walking further away.. And then she came back with her faced changed.. Having that “something going to happen face”.. I kept asking her whats wrong.. She said nothing.,. So I brushed it still wondering.. Then suddenly she said “ Saran close your eyes”.. So I did so.. Sheryll covered my eyes for added protection.. Then Iris said “your cake is coming”.. Then I started thinking who is bringing it.. A few names ran in my head.. In the meanwhile fiqah took over the covering..

How quietly they came..

While everything still unknown to me..

Then I heard someone say “Guess Who?”.. I knew who it was.. But part of me was thinking can’t be.. But I just said it out.. Fiqah told me off saying it’s no one.. Then I heard someone else’s voice.. And the next thing I knew - the bright sun was in my eyes.. They got adjusted and I saw the cake.. Saw Lydia, Pamela, Abi, Nigel, Khup, Liang Quan, Nicky and Faizal..

I was literally lost for words.. Just look at my face.. Explains alot.. So much so that I can’t remember the singing of the birthday song.. I ended up crying.. Blew candle.. MAde to do some stuff.. So I talked to them.. Was still so stunned that they were there.. AND EVEN MORE STUNNED THAT THEY MANAGED TO PULL IT OFF! Questioned them alittle.. Took some pictures..

LOVE YOU GUYS!!! =D

LOVE YOU GUYS TOO! =D

So played some card games with them and Ken.. Talked.. Took photos.. And then BACK TO THE CAKE! DURIAN CAKE!! A lot of them don’t like durian so it was alrite.. More for us =D
Some people left.. Group got decreased in size.. Played some games.. Sunset was blcked by the clouds.. Cleanned up and took the bus back to marina.. there,we realised the Frisbee was missing.. Grr… So gonna be paying back.. Went over to Orchard.. No movie.. Went to grab a bite.. And off to home feeling contented.. I was damn bloody happy ah!

Black and White

Colour..

Anyways.. I am gonna continue tomorrow! More to come.. =DD

I AM FREAKING 18 BAYBEH!! =D

2010-02-05T08:44:00.005+08:00

So yea..

Things have come and gone on.. Things have taken a turn for the better, not just for me but others too..

Today is my darling's birthday..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! =D

Anyways hope this birthday would be a good one(I AM SAYING ABOUT MY SELF IRIS!NOT CRISTIANO!).. It starting out to be a good one.. Tomorrow barage with poly mates.. Then Sunday with Pam, Si Hui and Abi, anyone else wanna come?

Everyone got own specific timing sia.. Maybe if the original bbq idea went through, it may a dif story.. hahah

Oh well.. I cant wait for tomorrow.. A day to relax and chill.. Turning 18 isnt much.. It's just a number right, but it means alot to me.. Hopefully more freedom to come =D

There are a certain things that I wished would come true, has.. Thank you =D

Toodles for now :)

2010-01-21T22:51:00.004+08:00

Okay..

I came on to type out some shit..

But I currently trying to control my laughter..

Oh well.. Hope things dont go out too far..

toodles with this..

2010-01-19T22:13:00.003+08:00

At the point when I need somebody.. No one is there.. Fuck it la... I mean why do I always have to be the good girl, the one who wants the good grades, bothers whether the work is complete anot.. Why cant I just totally FUCK IT.. I have got no heart to do that..

They bloody dont bother.. Expect everything fall into their laps.. Then when I ask for help, no reply! WTH! Please la.. If I can bother asking for help, jus reply la.. I seriously had enough of this type of people.. Cant take them..

Do things whenever it benefits them.. Screw you! I need to get my own benefits bitch! Why should I bother if you don't want to put any effort..

Why bother when relationships mean nothing to you.. Years of friendship, taken and thrown into the bin..

And damn I hate not knowing why I feel this way..

GOODBYE FUCKERS!!

2010-01-11T10:59:00.003+08:00

110110

Binary once again.. This year will be filled with binary numbers.. 101010 also..

Currently waiting for group members to come.. And as I predicted they would all be late.. 10.45, we will start an hour later.. Last monday in class I was the only one there.. Oh well.. It;s always the same with other groups I am in..

Yesterday.. Bad day.. Met a pervert asking me what size I was.. and asking whether he could touch or see.. He looked decent but once he asked that OMG.. Apparently he did that to 3 others.. I even called my bro ask him come up acc me.. YOU KNOW WHAT HE DID??? HE JUST LAUGHED!! Baka..

Then went to some party.. Kind of a ladies thing.. Mum me and sis went.. Then there kena someone try to grind.. Basket.. Friend come save me then..WAIT! Since when did I look good enough to grind with???

I think those guys are kinda BLIND! HAHAH!!!

Off to lala land once again.. Noone's here still..

2010-01-10T22:06:00.001+08:00

10.01.10

Binary number.. Looks like it..

Today's not a good day..

hahah!

2010-01-09T18:27:00.001+08:00

Hmmm...

I realised more about myself..

I got to know more things..

Felt the concern and care..

I mean really felt it..

I think i fell further for him..

2010-01-04T14:30:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

First day of school..

So far so good..

Hope s&w will be good too..

TATAT!!!!

2010-01-02T20:30:00.002+08:00

So..

Tuesday went to Vienna.. Had good food but I don't wanna go back there ever.. I openly went to take the alcohol that was there in the buffet rows.. Brought it to the table and my mum ask me what was it.. I said I think it's wine or shots.. Then she look at me and went to bring the shot glass for herself.. And we drank.. HAHAH!!

Wednesday.. Met Tristal and Sing Wei, LIKE FINALLY! Watched Alvin and The Chipmunks 2.. Cute sia the movie.. You spin me right round like a record.. Who cant say "Awwww so cute" to that? Went to meet Kin Ing after that and then headed to Bedok for the Faith 2-1 Reunion Dinner.. Quiet a good turn out.. Not as bad as expected.. Simpang Bedok food has never failed to be good.. You know what.. I really didn't feel like going.. Don't know why.. But it all turned out good..

Thursday went on the Flyer.. LIKE FINALLY!!! The last time when we planned to go, lucky plans changed last min if not we would be stuck in it.. It was about that time that we were planning to go.. Wow.. Anyways.. Student price $10.. Still going on.. Flyer need to be rided twice.. Once on a clear day.. And once on a clear night.. Two very different experience..

Friday.. NEW YEARS!!! Did not go anywhere... Stayed home..

Today.. Also nowhere..

I dont mind.. This 2 weeks, I enjoyed.. Starting from last tuesday.. Why? Daddy took leave for this 2 weeks.. Wanted to go on a holiday overseas.. But last minute plans were scrapped and we enjoyed here.. Cost lesser and enjoyed as much.. The so called "last day" was on thursday.. HAHA!! So yeap..

Holiday in Singapore..

2010

2010-01-01T17:24:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2010 is finally here..

Okay.. 2009 was actually overall a damn good year..

2 things I am very thankful for in 2009..

Firstly-I changed my view on life.. And cause of that change.. I got to enjoy Life more.. I mean I dont see why I need to be pissed and not enjoy.. And with that, I got to enjoy Poly better then I expected.. I did and said things the old Saran wouldnt have done or said.. Thanks!=D

Secondly-I STARTED POLY!!!! I always worried about whther I could fit in, get used to it, make friends or be able to cope, etc.. But instead.. It was all opposite! I MADE DAMN AWESOME FRIENDS and NOT FORGETTING OLD FRIENDS!!! Got to know them better and got to make many many many many many new ones.. I made through the transition well i guess.. Love you guys!!!

So yea.. Mainly cause of this two reasons, I find it has been an AWESOME year.. So I am starting the new year with a HUGE SMILE!

I am ready for you 2010! Beware of SARAN!! MUAHAHHA!!!

360

2009-12-31T21:36:00.001+08:00

2009 on to 2010..

1 hour to go!!!

Thankfully Pleasurising..

2009-12-28T21:21:00.003+08:00

Temasek Poly Had A Huge Wind Sweeping Throught It Today Between 1.40PM and 6.10PM..

Morning met Abi.. Pei her til Sandra came.. Needed that.. Abi, you know.. Your problems made me push mine away and not think about it.. I think I will be alrite..

So after that.. Went over to TP to meet Pamela.. BUT first, Kenneth called asking me where am I.. Then Jagbir called.. So yea.. Once reached.. Went t makan at Design School's cantten.. Oh man the food was goooood!!!!!!!! But I couldnt finish the chicken.. HAHAH!!

After that went over to sit outside the library for awhile.. Met Kenneth, Kai Jing, Ruth, Wee Keng there.. Then shifted location, met Li Xin, Si Hui, Raquel, Xin Ying.. After that went over to Engineering block, met Joshua.. And I finally got to meet Jagbir.. After like nearly a year.. Had a nice chat..

One thing about TP, its small BUT its soo spacious.. Come on they have a park there where you can sit and chat.. Serene place there.. Haix.. Had a good day today... I can say that..

PAMELA CHNG WAN TING THANK YOU FOR TOURING ME AROUND TP!!! =DD

OKAY TOMORROW OFF TO VIENNA FOR GOOD FOOD!!!

Heartbreak Kid..

2009-12-27T20:59:00.004+08:00

And to whoever thought he was genuine..

Not what it meant to be..

There ever so simply he broke her heart without knowing..

Where she and her associates thought it was heading into a prospective direction..

Where he said sweet nothings to her in a silent promise..

Only for it to be crumble..

It's not as thought she phantomed those actions rite..

They were all sign...

Leading one way...

Oh well..

She may have been thinking too much..

Thus leaving her feeling as such..

Maybe it was meant to be from the beginning..

Maybe she can still try..

But she knows know that her feelings were truly real..

She does not want to give up..

She will not..

Only when it seems totally impossible..

It sucks to feel this way...

Have not felt like this..

It hurts..

2009-12-26T21:49:00.002+08:00

So.. Last monday Ice skating.. And Couple's Retreat..

Tues.. Stayed home..

Wednesday.. Buffet lunch at Crowne Plaza Hotel at T3..

Thurs.. Lunch at Earl Swensons.. Ate jus my pan ice cream.. LOVE IT!!

Fri.. Went swimming and finally met abi!

TODAY.. Phone shopping.. Tomorrow, not sure..

Mon.. Ice skating agian.. And meeting Pamela!

Tues.. Lunch at Vienna..

Wed.. F21 Reunion Dinner..

Thurs.. New Years EVE

WOW! I AM PACKED TIL YEAR END!!

I've got a new baby!

2009-12-26T21:43:00.002+08:00

Introducing my new DARLING!!!!!

Nokia 6760! I love having such phones... And i know my darling wont be a bitch and screw up.. LOVE YOU!!!

Once upon a time..

2009-12-25T21:44:00.003+08:00

*TAKES DEEEP BREATHE*

All is quiet.. Plus ears.. Aahun Aahun plays... The feeling is GREAT!

Okay I dont know why but it feels satisfying and good to listen to a song like that..

So... Things I've learn about myself..

1.I love bear hugs.. Feels so comforting and secured.. My uncle give them..

2.Maybe that's why I fall for big guys.. I mean.. Both my eyecandies have been big size.. I never liked small guys.. As in like like.. Not Friends.. They come in all different shapes and sizes..

3.I like looking at the sky and looking out for stars.. And if there is someone with me, PLUS POINT! It's just so nice and peaceful.. On Sunday, I stopped in the middle of the road to look at the stars.. Literally middle of the road..

4.I also like long walk.. BUT with someone.. Time passes so fast.. You talk about practically everything under the sun.. And it can be the best convo you ever had with that person..

5.Oh no need walk.. Jus sitting in one place and talking is the same.. Done it with Abi alot of times.. We can just go on and on.. Realised when Abi was in Vietnam..

6.I worrying about my close friends and also feel happy when they are happy.. Just love to see them SMILE!

7.I like guys who are gentleman like.. Open doors.. Walk on the side of the road that has the traffice.. Keeping an eye on you, making sure your okay.. Disturbing you in that perfect way.. *melts*

8.I love bbq marshmellows..

9.AND DURIAN!! Okay that I didnt realise it just recently but I soooooo wanted to say it..

10.I am satisfied with a normal phone.. But since I can choose so lets see what I am gonna get..

11.I rather have a camera on its own.. Not a phone+camera...

12.I think he is damn freaking nice.. Damn different from other guys.. But some of my girl friends dislike some of his actions.. [I need a guy to tell me what his actions mean!!!]

13.Oh and I love looking at houses.. Those private properties type..

That's about it ah..

Nite y'all!!!

UPDATE!

2009-12-25T20:46:00.013+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!!!! I AM BACK!!!

I know you have missed me.. HAHAHHA!!!

So anyways..
Common tests have come and gone.. Del was the most difficult of them all.. And FDAT, i thought that I really gotta f that.. But it turned out to be the easiest.. Oh well..

Watched Avatar.. AND WHOEVER HAS NOT WATCHED IT DO GO WATCH!! Worth the money!!! No joke!!! Okay.. So rushed home that day.. Suppose to get Iris's present.. But no time..So after that.. Got ready and off to 2 wedding parties.. The one before the wedding-Jagoh..

At the first wedding..

On to the second.. The more impt one.. That's my grandpa!

Now with my Uncle, the one in green.. And my Dad..

Uncle's wife.. Her sister's we

The irritating brother of mine.. And my Darling of a Sister..

Whole family.. Love this suit of mine..

So on Sunday-IRIS GAN BIRTHDAY BBQ!!!! Met Abi and Ebe and Eileen.. Thanks for helping me carry stuff Ebe!! They followed me, too bored and didnt know where else so do I suppose.. Just kidding.. HAHA! Bought all the presents and rushed down to Potong Pasir Mac to meet the rest.. Had to make and do up the HUGE card.. And thus ended up being one hour late.. Sorry Babe! Anyways.. Bbq was fun.. Mainly cause of the BASH Iris had.. Freeze my legs home.. Oh and the DURIAN CAKE! And the COMPANY!

KNOW YOU HAD FUN BABE!!!

Birthday girl..

I dunno why but i love this pic..

Front of the card..

Back of the card..

Group Shot..

And lastly.. The four lovely babes!

Oh I have a couple of things that I realise aout myself.. Thanks for staying on this long..

Next post!

2009-12-09T16:16:00.002+08:00

Current game I am playing.. Heh heh heh...

2009-11-30T21:18:00.001+08:00

OKAY TODAY IF OFFICIALLY A GOOD DAY!!!!

REALLY!!!

Updates later or tomorrow..

Stone Stonning Stoned

2009-11-30T12:59:00.004+08:00

I actually was stonning so much that I din even see 154 come.. Only when I looked up and saw Zheng Hou, then did I realise that I am suppose to take that bus.. I slowly walked up to the door and walked in,sat beside him.. And I could still say.. I was stonning.. LOL man.,

So anyways, I was thinking.. I should just not bother about whatever arrangement that is going on.. Since I am not suppose to know.. Atleast this way, I can decide what am I going to do next..

It is not the end yet.. I should just think what will I do, what am I going to say.. Come on.. Is this the age to think about marriage.. I mean.. Haix..

Unknown Forces

2009-11-30T11:07:00.002+08:00

Sorry guys.. But I had to let it all out.. Its alright if you don't read it, I understand.. But I had to say it.. I don't get why they are like that..

On top of that.. No replies.. I hate sending messages with meaning and receiving no reply.. Shit man..

And I have been using shit a lot.. Don't mind me.. I need to let it out..

COME ON BABY! WHERE ARE YOU!

2009-11-30T10:42:00.005+08:00

SHIT MAN!! THIS IS REAL SHIT!!!

I wasn't even suppose to know.. WTH! How can they keep such a thing from me.. They know my view on it.. And yet.. And how I found out?

They were talking about attending someone's wedding.. The having me and my sis there for some ritual that need young girls.. I don't fall into that category.. They need YOUNG girls.. Meaning small.. So bla bla bla.. Then daddy said, my daughter here had 1001 friends.. How you want her to invite to her wedding etc(inside joke).. That made Puwa (my dad's sis) ask me -Eh you got punjabi guy friends anot? So I said.. My course doesn't have any.. Actually my year doesnt.. So then she say-What about from Punjabi school? I was like thinking to myself.. Those gys.. hell no.. As friend no problem.. As bf, hell no.. I didn't answer her.. She then said.. But really ah.. Now is the best time to find a boy.. Cause later on, they'll all be taken.. I just continue keeping quiet.. Then my mum spoke up.. (Laughs) Her grandmother already make relatonship without consulting us, so no need to worry about not finding one..

WTF! Man.. This is pure shit.. My ah ma had said to some one else.. If you and I are still living in 5 or 6 yrs time, consider this relation as done.. FUCKING SHIT!!!! No wonder she was trying to get me to go India with her.. From what I remember, she kept asking me whether I would like living overseas, as in Canada, London area.. I jokingly told her I dont mind London, got all the hot guys there.. Then she kept on pestering me to go with her.. NO WONDER! Everything falls into place now.. HOW THE HELL I KNOW THAT SHE PLAN WITH SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To them, it's a meaning of honor and word.. Fuck shit.. Come on la.. This is the 21st century.. I never EVER expected that I would fall into this shit.. I mean.. Yea, a good relation came out with my parents and my aunt.. BUT THAT'S JUST A ONE IN DUNNO HOW MANY CHANCES!

I have already dreamt of my dream wedding.. You know, I felt like telling Puwa that there arent any punjabi guys that I my type.. Only 1 who was the exterior, internal, not sure.. But please.. I've only liked 1 punjabi guy in my whole life.. ONLY 1.. See what I mean.. Haix.. There is no way I am going to get into an arranged mariage like the old times.. Even 21st century arranged marriages are better.. AT LEAST THE GUY AND GIRL MEET!

Maybe I should just say I dont wanna ever get married.. Then run away with my bf and marry him in somewhere far far far away.. Ah! Good idea.. ANY ONE GOT A BETTER IDEA???

ILU

2009-11-28T20:04:00.001+08:00

In words of IRIS- Haaayyyyyy!

So far things have been good.. Had a double kill on thurs.. Back to back man.. The second one., stone sia.. No wonder I fell for him.. His looks.. Ooooo

Anyways that fella no chance la... Now got new one so yeap.. Once again I am left with just hoping...

Everytime it's just hope this or that will happen but nah... It hasn't been good lately.. I have been doing something for alot of ppl just hope that someone can do it for me..

Abi, I think what I said is true.. I think I am really falling for him.. And I mean more then eye-satisfaction... Shit man.. Wrong timing!

2009-11-21T21:49:00.002+08:00

La di dum di dum..

I really fall for meltable smiles..

And nice characters..

The type that treat us well..

Open doors..

Give us that right amount of space..

Etc..

2009-11-21T21:25:00.002+08:00

Let me introduce to a new certain someone..

SHAHID KAPOOR!

His body is AWESOME!

His hair is so WONDERFUL!

They way he pushes it back is just so.. wow!

AND HIS SMILE!
MELTING!!!

I fall for meltable smiles..

Look at that hair!!

Look at the body!!

AHHH!!!

Haix....

2009-11-19T22:03:00.002+08:00

Today was something new..

FLOODING IN NGEE ANN POLY!!!!!

Watch the videos on my FB page..

Atrium was flooded.. REALLY FLODDED! As in people took off shoes to walk around.. Then the underpass was also flooded.. They had to close it.. The t-junction was also flooded.. Makan place had a waterfall.. Library 4th floor was flooded.. People made paper boats and played with them.. When they were shooed away, the boats were left floating.. Convention Centre was flooded.. Red Camp was chaotic according my lecturer.. Oh also.. This is the worst in 20 yrs.. That's what she said also..

How fun.. HAHAH!! It was really something out of the ordinary..

2009-11-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

SARAN!

JUST GO AND DIE!

BlondeandBlack

2009-11-17T23:22:00.002+08:00

Okay before I forget I am gonna do some advertising...

Spread the word! An awesomely new blogshop has jus opened-http://blondeandblack.livejournal.com

GO GO GO!

Are you free tonight?

2009-11-17T22:28:00.004+08:00

Now Google's being a bitch.. Not that I have had enough with IE..

So it was the Red Dot Museum and URA yesterday.. =DDD was how I felt.. So I had to wait from 10 til 11.15 before they came.. So nevermind... Once they, we went in.. Looked and oogled at the pictures and exibits.. Was saying that I wanted this and that in my future home.. So as I kept snapping.. Vijay came to me and said.. Why taking so any pictures? So I replied.. These are interesting, Dunno what to choose so go home and see.. The he said.. If you think this is good,wait until you move further down.. And how right he was.. The ideas got more creative as we moved along.. Some we have seen alternate versions of.. Others were wow.. Like this bike.. Love it..

We spent over an hour plus in there.. Towards the end, we started talking about movies.. Oh, Paranormal Activities right.. The one I watched and the one in theaters both have different endings.. TOTAL difference.. Anyways.. Ate at Maxwell Food Court.. Damn damn damn filling... But the Honeydew Bubble Tea was GOOOOOOD! After so long gotta that perfect taste..

Off to URA after that.. Nothing new there.. Been there last year.. And finally at 2pm, we headed back to school.. s&w went by damn fast! I mean before I knew it, he was wrapping up and telling us to go.. Was kinda high the rest of the day.. Due to reason unknown..

Today.. Nothing much... Back to the hectic pace of school.. Ael gonna kill me.. I NEED HELP THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ANYONE!!!!???!!!!!????

Finally got my much craved BANANA JUICE aka cum juice.. Hehe.. Lunch today was AWESOME TOO!!! =DD

La di dum.. Da di dum.. I am high once again..

Its been going great until now as I type.. So I pray for it to get better..

Please and Thank You!

Dil bole Hadippa..

2009-11-14T19:27:00.003+08:00

Okay it's back to being opened..

Really enjoyed myself today.. Needed this.. Talking in punjabi about munjens around us.. Fun sia..

Come home.. No brother to spoil everything.. Wow.. That's great!

Hope Monday bring loads of surprises like last week..

Feel like taking my jacket, phone and touchy and go to the riverside and stone there.. Listen the newly added songs.. Clear my head.. Walk all the way to ECP..

Shahid Kapoor looks damn hot in Dil Bole Hadippa.. Love his hair.. Haha

Okay.. Off to the Frozen Throne.. Toodles..

Time to dance babey...

2009-11-04T00:04:00.001+08:00

Fine...

Goodbye then..

2009-11-03T23:30:00.001+08:00

Why can they be nice to EVERYONE else but not to me? Mehnu hor PETA hai and yet... Fuck it...

Undisclosed Desires

2009-10-31T21:44:00.002+08:00

Okay.. I have been forgetting to say this.. I am addicted to this song.. Undisclosed Desires by Muse.. It's something different by them.. The lyrics are meaningful to me.. And without fail, I have been listening to it a couple of times, everyday for the past week.. I've never loved a song as much as this..
x
I know you've suffered,
But I don't want you to hide,
It's cold and loveless,
I won't let you be denied
x
Soothing,
I'll make you feel pure,
Trust me,
You can be sure
x
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask,
I want to exorcise the demons from your past,
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
x
You trick your lovers,
That you're wicked and divine,
You may be a sinner,
But your innocence is mine
x
Please me,
Show me how it's done,
Tease me,
You are the one
x
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart,
I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask,
I want to exorcise the demons from your past,
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
x
Please me,
Show me how it's done,
Trust me,
You are the one
x
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart,
I want to recognize your beauty's not just a mask,
I want to exorcise the demons from your past,
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
x
The lyrics just call out to me.. Damn this is good.. I can go to Muse when I am sad, depressed, happy, nuts or normal.. Any mood and I am done..
z
You are the one

I want you..

2009-10-31T21:08:00.009+08:00

Okay.. I took too many yesterday.. So much that I dunno what to put up.. HAHAH!! So I choose a few and ta-da.. I loveed my outfit yesterday.. For more than 1 reason..
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Okay.. Nicer few.. I so love the pictures =DD

So Pledge Of Silence.. I spoke 8 words by accident during that 8 over hours of Silence.. Stupid lappy.. Make me say 4 words.. Not easy but I managed to get thru it.. Ordering food during lunch was comical.. Thank god we said laughing wasnt counted in out Silence.. The two guys behind us thought we 3 were retarded.. Got mouth then dont want talk.. But use hp and paper to order food.. The guy at the stall din even react.. He was smiling only.. So nice.. It was really reflectful.. By keeping quiet, you hear much more..

So he was in my class.. Atleast he was patient with me when I was writing.. Still managed to have a conversation okay.. I just nodded, smiled and waved.. Fun.. Cant wait to see him on tuesday.. Got quiet afew smiles.. Oh man.. Shiok!

Today last lesson of Punjabi EVER.. I am NEVER gonna sing the NONIYAM again.. NEVER gonna WEAR that uniform again.. NEVER gonna write punjabi again afer monday.. Wierd to have it finally over.. Alot of words getting mixed up today.. Wrong words in the wrong places.. Monday A level and I am done with Moter Toungue.. MUAHAHAH!!!

Things have settled out.. I am being kinda sentimental these few days.. I just am so appreciative of the people around me.. I imagined loosing one of them or trying to erase one of them.. Not easy.. I would have to migrate and change my name.. And dispose of everything I own.. Okay off the point.. I mean.. I am just thankful for them all.. I dunno wht I would do without you guys..

LOVE YOU GUYS!!! =D

2009-10-30T22:28:00.000+08:00

I was so happy in school.. Bt once I reached home.. Shit starts again.. And once again I start feeling lonely.. Wishing things were like before.. I miss that ah.. Can msged anything and expect something..

Ah fuck.. I dunno what I am talking..

Talk about Pledge Of Silence tomorrow.. I need someone to cheer me up..

2009-10-30T20:53:00.003+08:00

that's right. small miracles in unexpected places. Sometimes God says 'no' to our prayers and we interpret that as "no answer". But a 'no" is also an answer, isn't it? :) Our God cares for us too much to give in to our every whim and fancy. Like a good parent, God gives us things we need and denies us of things He knows are not good for us. :)

I found this email.. Ms Khek sent it as a reply to wat I had reflected on a story I read.. Wow..

2009-10-29T18:28:00.003+08:00

Time to shut up tmr!

Pledge of Silence gonna go on.. So I wont be talking for 8 hours.. GUYS don't try to get us to talk ah.. And worst part.. Tmr I get to see him.. SAme class.. WTH la.. Then cant talk.. AHH!!!

Anyways help me donate okay..

Oh and tagged is fun.. Just add only.. HAHAH!!

2009-10-29T09:39:00.002+08:00

Coffee Oreo is nice.. I love it..

Sheryll why la.. Why you like that.. The straw was there all along.. Then still go up to buy bubble tea for Sanjeev.. Since when you so nice to him.. Why la.. I dunno what you doing sia..

2009-10-29T07:39:00.002+08:00

YAWN!!!!!

That's how its done..

I dunno what's going on anymore..

So I am gonna just let it go with the flow..

Hahaha